you only see me
if you see me
on my good days
on my bad days
I never make it
out of bed
the covers
too heavy to lift
the gravity
of each moment
immense and
inescapable
it is all
that I can do
to lay there
harmlessly
buried alive
by the hurt
by inadequacies
by the real and
the imaginary
all day
I struggle so hard
not to be
the defeat
so dim
so cloudy
then I try again
the next morning
and the next
and the next