
I have placed you, bright stars, among the constellations of my dark heart.
a heap of things underwhelming
by Neal

I have placed you, bright stars, among the constellations of my dark heart.
by Neal

they will say that
this fool
trudged
through the years
forever demanding
what was not
on the menu
by Neal

They are
talking
snapping
itching
scratching
hard
they go
latching
onto anything
that helps them
to forget
not one
of them
is really happy
being
alive
being
anything
anywhere
anymore
they all
roam
sob
shamble
spend and
spend
and
spend
and
complain
these
poor fools
these
starving ghosts
thinking
praying
believing
they could
actually
buy life
back
and death,
it comes
with them
never
recognizing
never
realizing or
understanding
the sheer
simplicity
of it all
they die
they go
never
knowing
how
they forged
their chains
they bound
their wrists
they cut
their throats
themselves
(Originally published in Provoke)
by Neal

and though our tongues may not share a kiss
nor our throats speak with the same laughter
I will content myself that we still share some things:
the sun that shines upon you may shine upon me, sometimes
likewise the moon, the stars
the waves and the rain that travel from your shore to mine
the thin wind whispering through the leaves and tousling your hair
like a wished upon shrine
carries with it the remnants of my words:
I loved you,
I only loved you.
by Neal

tear me
from my drunken reveries
and drag me
screaming and
flailing
into the haunting majesty
of these days
tear me
away
from all my thoughts
of her
that my new nights
may beat out unfamiliar rhythms
upon the drum-set of my heart
tear me
from the safety
of my stupid cocoon
and teach me the fire-
show me how to burn
all that was
or could have been,
how to be born
again and again
in the transient splendor
of each passing
moment
my friend,
tear me
now
into the present
teach me and
teach me
everything,
everything
all over
again.